NOTE FROM MY HEART

Now as I write this, you may be thinking
to yourself “Where did I go wrong?
Often as you think backwards, wishing that being
there more would change the future, love was never gone.
To teach me from right from wrong I knew, I feel
I wanted more from life then I could have in my time.
Each bad emotion I had, you were there for me, soul mates
for nine months say this, yet this pain will always be mine.
Freedom of choice I was given, voice of advice
and help I had, my soul just had no ears.
Reach out to each other we did, so you know
this. My mother should not have my fears.
One day at a time I tried to take, I had friends
for this, friendship was a rainbow of no end.
Much regret I have passed on to you, Mom, precious love,
when will I see you again? Always to you I send.
Many moments as I build my body to feel
good, the thought of loneliness sets in.
Yesterday is today though, I guess for what happened
is the only way I thought I could win.
Have your tears you must, remorse sets in
my older life I made myself on my own to be.
Each teardrop I let go was for me to see and feel,
chances are, in your dreams, you will see me.
Always remember when the wind is right, the leaves
flow silently and dance for you, that’s me, so you know.
Reach for the key to open the prison door you have locked
yourself in, I will be around to take away the cold.
Time to me is forever; to wonder near my precious loved ones
not to let them make my mistake, my spirit tells me so.